Well, after a promising start (with the 'ruined orgasm' option getting the early lead), as it stands you lot have voted for me to have to wait another month... which, I could live with... Not that the divine Mistress R is likely to take the opinion of a bunch of lowly subbies to heart. The very idea! Still, keep voting if you haven't already and who knows, maybe you'll convince her?
Nice to see that 70% of you reckon that your partner's orgasm is more fulfilling for you than your own. It certainly makes me feel a little less of a freak. Like most of you I'm sure, it's not that I don't enjoy my own orgasms, it's just that making Mistress R cum is the single best thing in the world for me... it just floods me with contentedness and happiness, so much so that even when I'm in the kind of position I am now (23 days without one myself) Mistress R's orgasm is still more important to me than my own, and indeed if Mistress R came up the stairs right now and said 'Do you want to cum, or do you want to make me cum', I wouldn't even need to think about it.
I guess this result is largely a product of the demographic though, I mean given that a lot of us aren't having that many of our own, we're bound to refocus our attention on our lovely Mistress's pleasure aren't we? I can't imagine the same result if you put that poll on, say, Maxim's website, can you?
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Monday, June 20, 2011
More writing...
Managed to add a couple of thousand words to my Femdom Cave book last night. Seemed like hard work, I guess ignoring it for two weeks isn't the way to keep the juices flowing. Still I'm over 21,000 words now and I'm sure I could make that a few more if I actually went back and filled in some of the finer details (which I'm not going to do until I've finished the first draft).
In my eagerness to include an earlier than planned cuckolding scene I've gone somewhat off my original plan, and to be honest I'd only planned so far into the book anyway, partly because I knew I'd never stick to it...
Hmm, and I still have to write the difficult scene that I put off writing before, only now it's from a different angle, which might make it a little easier, we'll see... maybe I can get some writing done this evening, after my appointment with Mistress Motivator!
Mmmm, Mistress R in lycra. Much more fun than walking, even with an iPod.
In my eagerness to include an earlier than planned cuckolding scene I've gone somewhat off my original plan, and to be honest I'd only planned so far into the book anyway, partly because I knew I'd never stick to it...
Hmm, and I still have to write the difficult scene that I put off writing before, only now it's from a different angle, which might make it a little easier, we'll see... maybe I can get some writing done this evening, after my appointment with Mistress Motivator!
Mmmm, Mistress R in lycra. Much more fun than walking, even with an iPod.
23 days...
So, like I said before, every day is a new record now, and as much as I obviously do want to cum, I have to say there's a part of me that hopes Mistress R stops at the last minute on Saturday, or perhaps the last second... (or the second after that).
There's something indescribably delicious about being denied this long and as much as I know that when Mistress starts to stroke me towards that inevitable orgasm, I will want to cum more than I've ever wanted to cum in my life, at the same time, I would probably beg her to make me wait if I thought it would make any difference. Sadly your votes are unlikely to make a difference either, but I still want to know what you think, and who knows, maybe Mistress R will be swayed if enough of you vote?
Can you guess what I voted for?
There's something indescribably delicious about being denied this long and as much as I know that when Mistress starts to stroke me towards that inevitable orgasm, I will want to cum more than I've ever wanted to cum in my life, at the same time, I would probably beg her to make me wait if I thought it would make any difference. Sadly your votes are unlikely to make a difference either, but I still want to know what you think, and who knows, maybe Mistress R will be swayed if enough of you vote?
Can you guess what I voted for?
Sunday, June 19, 2011
4/1 at last...
It's been a while coming, but Mistress R has now had 4 orgasms for every one of mine since the 1st April, and it's only going to get less fair I'm sure...
Why? Well, if we look at the stats in closer detail we find that in April I was permitted 4 orgasms, in May 2, and June's looking likely to be 1 or perhaps 2 if Mistress R is feeling particularly generous (although from the look in her eyes earlier when she said 'no, you're not cumming yet', I very much doubt it!).
I don't have a record of when all of Mistress R's orgasms have taken place, but I do know that Mistress R has had approximately 2 a week for the last twelve weeks. So using that to formulate a rough guide, we can see that in April Mistress R had 9 orgasms to my 4, in May she had 9 orgasms to my 2, and in June so far she's had 6 to my 0.
Looking at it like that, 4/1 seems rather generous, doesn't it?
Of course this is all somewhat meaningless, because Mistress R can change her mind whenever she wants. So if she wanted to, she could make me cum twice tonight, twice tomorrow night, and twice every night for the rest of the week... but I very much doubt it. I think she's starting to enjoy it far too much to do that!
Mmmm, life is good... and it's only going to get better, because tomorrow night is my first night with Mistress R as my personal trainer and not only will I get to watch her exercising in tight clothing (yum!), but I will also be taking the first step to a new, slimmer, fitter, hornier me. I've seen enough of so-called 'Doctor' Gillian McKeith's programmes to know that when you lose weight your sex drive improves (that's why she's always force feeding porkers like me Pumpkin seeds), and I'm certainly looking forward to that, even though I know it's only really going to make things harder for me... (bring it on!)
Plus I'm reliably informed that when your body looks smaller it makes your cock look bigger, and I'm all for that! I mean I've already done the pube trimming thing, I'm running out of tricks (hahaha). And of course the slimmer I get, and the bigger my cock looks, the more likely Mistress R is to want to tease me every single night until I'm a gibbering wreck (at least that's what I'm telling myself).
Well, probably not, but hey, at least I've got some new Nike shorts to make myself feel good!
Why? Well, if we look at the stats in closer detail we find that in April I was permitted 4 orgasms, in May 2, and June's looking likely to be 1 or perhaps 2 if Mistress R is feeling particularly generous (although from the look in her eyes earlier when she said 'no, you're not cumming yet', I very much doubt it!).
I don't have a record of when all of Mistress R's orgasms have taken place, but I do know that Mistress R has had approximately 2 a week for the last twelve weeks. So using that to formulate a rough guide, we can see that in April Mistress R had 9 orgasms to my 4, in May she had 9 orgasms to my 2, and in June so far she's had 6 to my 0.
Looking at it like that, 4/1 seems rather generous, doesn't it?
Of course this is all somewhat meaningless, because Mistress R can change her mind whenever she wants. So if she wanted to, she could make me cum twice tonight, twice tomorrow night, and twice every night for the rest of the week... but I very much doubt it. I think she's starting to enjoy it far too much to do that!
Mmmm, life is good... and it's only going to get better, because tomorrow night is my first night with Mistress R as my personal trainer and not only will I get to watch her exercising in tight clothing (yum!), but I will also be taking the first step to a new, slimmer, fitter, hornier me. I've seen enough of so-called 'Doctor' Gillian McKeith's programmes to know that when you lose weight your sex drive improves (that's why she's always force feeding porkers like me Pumpkin seeds), and I'm certainly looking forward to that, even though I know it's only really going to make things harder for me... (bring it on!)
Plus I'm reliably informed that when your body looks smaller it makes your cock look bigger, and I'm all for that! I mean I've already done the pube trimming thing, I'm running out of tricks (hahaha). And of course the slimmer I get, and the bigger my cock looks, the more likely Mistress R is to want to tease me every single night until I'm a gibbering wreck (at least that's what I'm telling myself).
Well, probably not, but hey, at least I've got some new Nike shorts to make myself feel good!
Oooooooooh yes...
Mmm, just been invited to come back to bed by Mistress R and allowed to worship her beautiful pussy once more (that was a long five days let me tell you!). Not only that but after Mistress R had her lovely orgasm she soon had me nice and hard and decided to sit on my cock for a few minutes, teasing me with some rapid thrusts every now and then. God it felt so amazing being inside her again... the first time since the 1st of June. So far I'm still managing to keep control relatively easily, which is quite surprising I think, considering I'm now on day 22 of denial...
To be completely honest, as much as I desperately wanted her to touch my cock this morning, what I really wanted more than anything was to feel her cum against my tongue. Making Mistress R cum always makes me feel completely blissed out and very, very happy. I absolutely adore the taste of her pussy and I love that I can taste her for hours afterwards. Mmmm, I am so chilled right now. Which is amazing really for someone with such heavy balls!
To be completely honest, as much as I desperately wanted her to touch my cock this morning, what I really wanted more than anything was to feel her cum against my tongue. Making Mistress R cum always makes me feel completely blissed out and very, very happy. I absolutely adore the taste of her pussy and I love that I can taste her for hours afterwards. Mmmm, I am so chilled right now. Which is amazing really for someone with such heavy balls!
One other thing I forgot to mention...
...yesterday on the train home when we were talking about Christmas, I said to Mistress R that if she keeps up her current rate, she would have had about 80 orgasms by then. I then said jokingly 'I wonder if I will have made it into double-figures', to which she replied 'that's a bit ambitious isn't it?', which of course could be taken two ways...
Saturday, June 18, 2011
After tomorrow, every day will be...
...a new record for me. Because tomorrow I will hit 22 days again and equal my previous record. However, it seems that there's no good me thinking I'm going to beat it by a day or two because Mistress R has made it pretty clear that I'm not going to be coming before next Saturday, and even then who knows for sure? There's nothing to stop her from extending it further if that's what she chooses to do. I have no say in it whatsoever, and that's just the way it should be.
I'm feeling pretty beat right now, London was exhausting as usual... the 'London Bridge Experience' is pretty rubbish (and expensive) but the Egyptian statues in the British Museum were pretty damn cool. Mistress R gave my cock a little rub on the train home, which was nice. I was telling her how much I loved that she just decided to add another week to my chastity period, how I loved that my orgasms are now completely in her hands, and how I'm now really starting to feel like she has taken control properly. Just talking about it made me hard, as Mistress found out... hehehe.
Earlier, on a tube station platform, we were talking about my weightloss and how much I will have lost by Christmas, and I joked 'Is that when my year of denial starts then?', and she said 'You wouldn't really want that would you?'. I just gave the only answer I could really, 'It's not up to me...', and as far as I'm concerned it isn't, if she decided she wanted to do that I would agree, without a doubt. But while on one hand part of me thinks it's super-hot, I seriously doubt I would have the willpower to do that without a chastity device, so we'd need to sort that out first.
Anyway, I think that's maybe jumping ahead a bit, as I'm still yet to beat twenty two days (although I know it's coming!). This coming week will certainly be a hard one, if you'll pardon the pun!
I'm feeling pretty beat right now, London was exhausting as usual... the 'London Bridge Experience' is pretty rubbish (and expensive) but the Egyptian statues in the British Museum were pretty damn cool. Mistress R gave my cock a little rub on the train home, which was nice. I was telling her how much I loved that she just decided to add another week to my chastity period, how I loved that my orgasms are now completely in her hands, and how I'm now really starting to feel like she has taken control properly. Just talking about it made me hard, as Mistress found out... hehehe.
Earlier, on a tube station platform, we were talking about my weightloss and how much I will have lost by Christmas, and I joked 'Is that when my year of denial starts then?', and she said 'You wouldn't really want that would you?'. I just gave the only answer I could really, 'It's not up to me...', and as far as I'm concerned it isn't, if she decided she wanted to do that I would agree, without a doubt. But while on one hand part of me thinks it's super-hot, I seriously doubt I would have the willpower to do that without a chastity device, so we'd need to sort that out first.
Anyway, I think that's maybe jumping ahead a bit, as I'm still yet to beat twenty two days (although I know it's coming!). This coming week will certainly be a hard one, if you'll pardon the pun!
Friday, June 17, 2011
You can wait another week...
This morning I commented to Mistress R that this was the day we had originally intended to have our Femdom session (and I was probably 'supposed' to cum'). She said 'Yes, but you can wait another week can't you... otherwise you'll have to be locked up'. I know the 'locked-up' bit wasn't serious, but it was still nice to hear and more importantly 'you can wait another week can't you' certainly wasn't phrased as a question.
It feels so good that Mistress R is really taking control of my orgasms now, because although she has had control over them for two and a half months already, somehow this is the first time that I've really felt that it's not up to me anymore. And that is a wonderful feeling. Because when she said about moving the session, she told me that she had already decided that she wanted to make me wait another week longer than I was expecting, and truth be told, although I really do want to cum next Saturday, if she decides to make me wait another week, that would feel pretty amazing too.
No orgasms or teasing to report today, so far... and not likely tomorrow I shouldn't think... maybe Sunday will be more fruitful.
I'm looking forward to starting my diet and exercise regime actually, Mistress R is going to be my personal trainer and I'm looking forward to ogling her awesome bottom when she's bending over and stuff, hehehe.
It feels so good that Mistress R is really taking control of my orgasms now, because although she has had control over them for two and a half months already, somehow this is the first time that I've really felt that it's not up to me anymore. And that is a wonderful feeling. Because when she said about moving the session, she told me that she had already decided that she wanted to make me wait another week longer than I was expecting, and truth be told, although I really do want to cum next Saturday, if she decides to make me wait another week, that would feel pretty amazing too.
No orgasms or teasing to report today, so far... and not likely tomorrow I shouldn't think... maybe Sunday will be more fruitful.
I'm looking forward to starting my diet and exercise regime actually, Mistress R is going to be my personal trainer and I'm looking forward to ogling her awesome bottom when she's bending over and stuff, hehehe.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
That time of the night...
"At that time of the night, when streetlights throw crosses through windowpanes...".
Ah good old Marillion... Only in my case it wasn't so much streetlights throwing crosses through windowpanes, it was more like the beginning of a new day! Why oh why did I think it was a good idea to stay up until 3:15 this morning? It was starting to get light FFS! And then the birds started tweeting... aargh, shut up you feathery bastards!
Despite this, I awoke this morning to the thoroughly beautiful sight of Mistress R, half on top of the bedclothes, sleeping peacefully and amazingly, despite the monumental tiredness I was experiencing, as I looked at her I realised my cock was absolutely rock hard, the tip coated with a liberal sheen of pre-cum... I guess that's what nineteen days of chastity does for you, and I've still got another nine to go (or maybe more?) and I'm, loving it, loving it, loving it!
Hmmm, last night's foot worship was an absolute joy for sure, but I hope it won't be too much longer before Mistress R demands my tongue in a more... can't think of a clever euphemism so I'll just say 'pussy based scenario', haha. I really am a complete addict, and I don't care who knows it!
Ah good old Marillion... Only in my case it wasn't so much streetlights throwing crosses through windowpanes, it was more like the beginning of a new day! Why oh why did I think it was a good idea to stay up until 3:15 this morning? It was starting to get light FFS! And then the birds started tweeting... aargh, shut up you feathery bastards!
Despite this, I awoke this morning to the thoroughly beautiful sight of Mistress R, half on top of the bedclothes, sleeping peacefully and amazingly, despite the monumental tiredness I was experiencing, as I looked at her I realised my cock was absolutely rock hard, the tip coated with a liberal sheen of pre-cum... I guess that's what nineteen days of chastity does for you, and I've still got another nine to go (or maybe more?) and I'm, loving it, loving it, loving it!
Hmmm, last night's foot worship was an absolute joy for sure, but I hope it won't be too much longer before Mistress R demands my tongue in a more... can't think of a clever euphemism so I'll just say 'pussy based scenario', haha. I really am a complete addict, and I don't care who knows it!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Mmm, Mistress R's beautiful feet...
Lucky, lucky me. Mistress R just allowed me to worship her beautiful soft feet for nearly twenty minutes. My lips are still tingling as I write this and my cock has just about settled down again after being pressed into the carpet all that time. I love her so much, it's times like these that I think I would do anything she wanted me to, no matter how filthy or perverted...
Speaking of which, some of you may have noticed a couple of the captions I have made recently have a bit of a w/s theme, something which I don't broach too often on this here blog, and I thought I would share with you something which made quite an impact on me the first time I read it, even if the effect has somewhat diminished with repeated readings. It's from a story from Literotica called 'She Expects That I Obey Her' by 'wants2bsub'. The story itself is a solid cuckold tale, but there's one passage in the story that really got to me, and I'm not even sure that it's what is said so much as the impact of the way the female character speaks to her husband and the casual attitude she takes to what is quite a strong statement...
"...I go back into the bathroom and see Jenny sitting on the toilet to urinate. I grab her some squares of toilet paper and stand waiting for her to finish. She looks at me, takes the toilet paper, and throws it on the ground in front of me. "I think we are beyond this." She stands with her legs spread slightly. For the first time ever she has me lick clean the urine that was left on her pussy. "Next time, I'll just piss right in your mouth," she says as she lifts herself away from me and walks to the sink. "You'd like that wouldn't you?"
Like I said, repeated readings have diminished the impact for me somewhat, but I love the attitude, it's a great piece of Femdom writing. It illustrates perfectly what I was talking about the other day (my post about AtAllTimes), nothing is hotter than a woman who expects her pleasure to be your utmost priority, even (or perhaps especially) if that means she's pushing the boundaries of what you might consider acceptable. After all, the whole impact of that passage would be completely lost if the woman showed any hesitation or sought any kind of agreement from her slave... the way it's written is just hot, hot, hot!
Anyway, if you want to read the rest of this story (and I'm betting you do) you can find it right here
Well, we've done it again. Another new daily pageviews record, 2586 in one day... how is this possible? I really don't understand how it isn't slowing down. Not that I'm complaining, but please, please use the comments boxes and let me know your thoughts on all my ramblings, thanks!
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Well, now I know...
A few hours ago I was in my absolute favourite place, face down on the bed tasting Mistress R's delicious pussy. After I brought her to a nice hard climax she had me lay on my back and sucked and jerked my cock for several minutes (I don't know how long, but I have noticed that Mistress seems to be watching the clock a lot lately, as if she's already decided how much time she's going to give me), the amazing thing was that every time I was starting to think about telling her I was getting close, she would slow down and keep me the right side of having to ask her to stop. I really don't know how she did that, maybe it was luck, but it was pretty cool all the same.
After she'd decided I'd had enough... we lay together for a while and she said she thought it would be a good idea if we moved the Femdom session back to a week on Saturday, and was I okay with that. Then she said 'I don't know why I'm asking you...', we had a laugh about that, but yes I don't know why she's asking me either! Anyway, so she added that one of the reasons she wanted to move it was that she wanted to add another week to my denial. So there it is, I'm not going to cum for another eleven days, on top of the seventeen I've already waited... giving me a new record of 28 days, six more than before (and that's assuming that she doesn't change her mind when it comes down to it).
How much cum will there be after 28 days? Cos I know I'm going to have to eat it... oh fuck, I don't care. I love that Mistress R is extending my chastity period and I love that she didn't ask me if that was 'okay' or 'if I could handle it', true she did ask me if it was okay to move the session, which she didn't need to do, but hopefully next time she won't...
After a really tough, hot, long walk this afternoon, this evening really has been quite wonderful!
After she'd decided I'd had enough... we lay together for a while and she said she thought it would be a good idea if we moved the Femdom session back to a week on Saturday, and was I okay with that. Then she said 'I don't know why I'm asking you...', we had a laugh about that, but yes I don't know why she's asking me either! Anyway, so she added that one of the reasons she wanted to move it was that she wanted to add another week to my denial. So there it is, I'm not going to cum for another eleven days, on top of the seventeen I've already waited... giving me a new record of 28 days, six more than before (and that's assuming that she doesn't change her mind when it comes down to it).
How much cum will there be after 28 days? Cos I know I'm going to have to eat it... oh fuck, I don't care. I love that Mistress R is extending my chastity period and I love that she didn't ask me if that was 'okay' or 'if I could handle it', true she did ask me if it was okay to move the session, which she didn't need to do, but hopefully next time she won't...
After a really tough, hot, long walk this afternoon, this evening really has been quite wonderful!
Mistress R's sneaky plan...
There is talk that our Femdom session may be put back until Saturday the 25th of June, primarily because Mistress R and I are already feeling the effects of being on holiday, eating too much, drinking too much and going to bed too late... or perhaps it's just a sneaky way of Mistress R adding another 8 days to my chastity period?
We shall see...
We shall see...
Another new record...
Yesterday we had 2503 page views, which is a new record for the blog. This means that June is well on course to outstrip May and we'll probably be hitting 100,000 p/v's by the weekend. And still the blog is only ten weeks old. Unbelievable!
Last night I finally took advantage of my second 'chance'. So just after one in the morning I was allowed to stroke my cock for three minutes. Mistress R wasn't participating in any way other than to keep an eye on the clock and it felt kind of weird laying next to her doing that. But kinda nice at the same time...
Guess I'll be having another thirty minutes in the CB-3000 later. Got to get used to it sooner or later, after all.
Last night I finally took advantage of my second 'chance'. So just after one in the morning I was allowed to stroke my cock for three minutes. Mistress R wasn't participating in any way other than to keep an eye on the clock and it felt kind of weird laying next to her doing that. But kinda nice at the same time...
Guess I'll be having another thirty minutes in the CB-3000 later. Got to get used to it sooner or later, after all.
Monday, June 13, 2011
30 mins in the CB-3000...
So I just had my first thirty minutes in the CB-3000 and... well, it's not too bad actually. Like the first time it seems to rub my nutsack up the wrong way and by the end it felt like my balls were getting a little crushed, so maybe I do need the longer pin after all. It's obviously not that noticeable under clothing as Mistress R didn't know I was wearing it until I told her. She then asked to see it and, well she didn't exactly look turned on...
I dunno. I really like the feeling of having my cock completely out of bounds, and the thought of experiencing that for some time before having Mistress R tease me is such a turn on because I can't imagine how amazing that would feel, but at the same time I completely fail to see how anyone could wear it all the time. I know you get used to it and all that but... at the moment I can't see it. But like most people I imagine, although my first instinct is to think, this is stupid even trying to wear this, I do want it to work because I really would love Mistress R to have total control of my cock and I don't see how else that is possible.
I dunno. I really like the feeling of having my cock completely out of bounds, and the thought of experiencing that for some time before having Mistress R tease me is such a turn on because I can't imagine how amazing that would feel, but at the same time I completely fail to see how anyone could wear it all the time. I know you get used to it and all that but... at the moment I can't see it. But like most people I imagine, although my first instinct is to think, this is stupid even trying to wear this, I do want it to work because I really would love Mistress R to have total control of my cock and I don't see how else that is possible.
Hmm, so...
Mistress R has just read my earlier posts and the upshot is that she thinks I need to start wearing my CB-3000 and getting used to it so that when she does decide to make me wear it I will have got used to it. That's a turn up for the books!!!
Not so much carrot and stick...
Mistress and I were having a laugh on the way to the shopping trip this morning, discussing the night out we had with our friends at the weekend and how I will explain the dramatic amount of weight I will shortly be losing. Okay yes, a little presumptuous perhaps, but given that Mistress has told me in no uncertain terms that my continued chastity experience depends on me putting in some effort and getting results, and that results will be rewarded with 'treats' I feel like I am in a very good place to really find my motivation! So it's more of a carrot and paddle situation then, or perhaps a dildo and paddle situation if you prefer.
Oh, and another thing, the other night while waiting for our friends to arrive at the restaurant Mistress and I were talking about my recent posts and she asked why I had written that I thought it unlikely that she would lock me up in the CB-3000. I confess I was a little taken aback at this since she has been pretty much against the thing from the word go and I thought it was pretty obvious why I thought this. Hmm. So, I still haven't actually worn it since that night and my main concern is that Mistress will suddenly decide to have me wear it and then it will be a disaster because I haven't had chance to get used to it. I mean maybe she will have me wear it to start our Femdom session on Friday (if it happens then) and that will probably only be a few minutes while I worship her feet or something and that will be fine (assuming I can get the thing on, it took me several goes the first time). But what I don't want is for her to suddenly want me to wear it in three weeks time with no warning and no chance to get used to it. Sad as it is to say, chastity devices are much like anal sex, best attempted after sufficient preparation, otherwise likely to result in great discomfort...
Oh, and another thing, the other night while waiting for our friends to arrive at the restaurant Mistress and I were talking about my recent posts and she asked why I had written that I thought it unlikely that she would lock me up in the CB-3000. I confess I was a little taken aback at this since she has been pretty much against the thing from the word go and I thought it was pretty obvious why I thought this. Hmm. So, I still haven't actually worn it since that night and my main concern is that Mistress will suddenly decide to have me wear it and then it will be a disaster because I haven't had chance to get used to it. I mean maybe she will have me wear it to start our Femdom session on Friday (if it happens then) and that will probably only be a few minutes while I worship her feet or something and that will be fine (assuming I can get the thing on, it took me several goes the first time). But what I don't want is for her to suddenly want me to wear it in three weeks time with no warning and no chance to get used to it. Sad as it is to say, chastity devices are much like anal sex, best attempted after sufficient preparation, otherwise likely to result in great discomfort...
Little things...
I read a post on 'At All Times' blog earlier today, and he really hit on something that a lot of men in our position seem to come up against sooner rather than later. What he was complaining about was that his wife doesn't understand that he wants his chastity to be led by her, and how frustrating he finds this. It's a little thing to him I suppose, he wants her to tell him that he isn't allowed to cum, rather than asking him if he wants to be denied. This is something that happened to me right at the very start of my chastity experience and thankfully I was able to get across to Mistress R that being asked was not good and we haven't looked back since. I can only say that the only way to overcome this is communication, albeit it does seem that 'AAT' is fighting a bit of a losing battle in this regard. It's quite heartbreaking really, because here is a guy who wants nothing more than to serve his wife and treat her like a Princess and she really doesn't seem to get it at all. But his blog does give some fascinating insights into the differences between men and women and at times he does analyse his own behaviour and conclude that perhaps as much as he thinks he's giving her everything he could give her, it may not actually be what she wants.
I am nowhere near as... obsessed (and I mean no disrespect by using that word) with 'serving' Mistress R as 'AAT' is with his wife, and yet I do find myself doing little things lately that I perhaps wouldn't have done before Mistress R took control of my orgasms. For instance I have noticed that I now make a point of unlocking Mistress R's car door and opening it for her, instead of getting in myself and unlocking her door from the inside. I don't know why I've suddenly started doing this, it was just something I found myself doing. I guess I used to do this before I had a car with central locking and since the central locking packed up on my current car I've just got into this bad habit.
Similarly, the last couple of days I have been in the shower before Mistress R (she is usually in the shower when I get home from work) and I have taken to getting her towels out for her and folding them neatly before placing them in the bathroom. Again I'm not really sure why I started doing this, it's just a little thing that makes me feel like I am serving her in some very small way. Which seems particularly important on the days when I am not able to serve her in the way I would really like to.
All this said, I have no intention of becoming a slave in the sense of doing all the housework and all that kind of thing. For the most part my willing submission is purely sexual, I am quite prepared to do my share but I'm not going to be hand-washing Mistress's panties in a maid's uniform any time soon, I can assure you!
I am nowhere near as... obsessed (and I mean no disrespect by using that word) with 'serving' Mistress R as 'AAT' is with his wife, and yet I do find myself doing little things lately that I perhaps wouldn't have done before Mistress R took control of my orgasms. For instance I have noticed that I now make a point of unlocking Mistress R's car door and opening it for her, instead of getting in myself and unlocking her door from the inside. I don't know why I've suddenly started doing this, it was just something I found myself doing. I guess I used to do this before I had a car with central locking and since the central locking packed up on my current car I've just got into this bad habit.
Similarly, the last couple of days I have been in the shower before Mistress R (she is usually in the shower when I get home from work) and I have taken to getting her towels out for her and folding them neatly before placing them in the bathroom. Again I'm not really sure why I started doing this, it's just a little thing that makes me feel like I am serving her in some very small way. Which seems particularly important on the days when I am not able to serve her in the way I would really like to.
All this said, I have no intention of becoming a slave in the sense of doing all the housework and all that kind of thing. For the most part my willing submission is purely sexual, I am quite prepared to do my share but I'm not going to be hand-washing Mistress's panties in a maid's uniform any time soon, I can assure you!
Holidays...
As some of you may know Mistress R and I are on holiday this week, albeit we are not going 'away' on holiday. So today we went to a big shopping centre which proved a little less satisfactory than usual. I did get everything on my list, although it was almost entirely dull and unexciting things I was looking for, probably the most 'fun' thing was a pair of Nike exercise shorts for the diet and exercise regime which is due to kick in on Saturday (along with my new blog of course). In fact probably the best bit of the whole trip was listening to three awesome Zeromancer albums on my iPod one after another!
Poor Mistress R couldn't find anything she wanted, save for one solitary paperback (she couldn't even find three to get a deal!) and she failed to find any strappy sandals to show off her lovely feet. Damn and blast. There's plenty of them of course but they only come in two heel sizes, flat and fucking stupid. Of course she would look awesome in the latter, but I know from seeing her in her plexiglass stripper shoes (as seen on the photographs) that walking in them is nigh on impossible. Surely shoe manufacturers of the world should be able to work out that not everyone wants five inch heels, or is that just too much like common sense?
So anyway, we left earlier than expected and having eaten rather a lot over the course of the day I don't think either of us are feeling particularly amorous, even though Mistress R knows that I am ALWAYS ready to service her whenever she wants me to, day or night, 24/7! I think I might suggest a day of healthy eating tomorrow, otherwise we'll end up going another day without any sexy fun, and that's not good. Okay I know it's only been since Saturday, but still, I need my fix of Mistress R's sweet nectar dammit!
Poor Mistress R couldn't find anything she wanted, save for one solitary paperback (she couldn't even find three to get a deal!) and she failed to find any strappy sandals to show off her lovely feet. Damn and blast. There's plenty of them of course but they only come in two heel sizes, flat and fucking stupid. Of course she would look awesome in the latter, but I know from seeing her in her plexiglass stripper shoes (as seen on the photographs) that walking in them is nigh on impossible. Surely shoe manufacturers of the world should be able to work out that not everyone wants five inch heels, or is that just too much like common sense?
So anyway, we left earlier than expected and having eaten rather a lot over the course of the day I don't think either of us are feeling particularly amorous, even though Mistress R knows that I am ALWAYS ready to service her whenever she wants me to, day or night, 24/7! I think I might suggest a day of healthy eating tomorrow, otherwise we'll end up going another day without any sexy fun, and that's not good. Okay I know it's only been since Saturday, but still, I need my fix of Mistress R's sweet nectar dammit!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Something I've noticed...
Just lately I've noticed something quite amazing. Like I said yesterday Mistress R now seems quite confident in her new role and when she decides to stop teasing me, she no longer hesitates. But more than that, I don't think Mistress is finding it as hard to deny me as she perhaps was at the start. I hope this is true because one day I truly hope that she will lock me up properly and make me wait a very long time to cum, and she'll never do that if she feels uncomfortable about denying me. She also seems to be softening a bit to the idea of the CB-3000, so maybe my dream will come true sooner than I think...
Friday, June 10, 2011
Mmm, so lucky am I...
It goes without saying that I love being teased. I love to feel Mistress stroking me at whatever pace she pleases, all the while knowing that I am never allowed to cum unless she gives me her express permission, knowing that longed for permission could come at any time, and could just as easily be withdrawn if Mistress thought I was taking too long. I love the frustration of wanting to be stroked harder and faster when she only wants to stroke softly and slowly. I love the sensation of her nails digging in to my aching flesh. I love being inside her and having to keep myself under control. I love it when she squeezes and scratches my balls, and I love it when she decides to stop and tells me ‘That‘s all for now,’ before kissing me deeply and deliberately ignoring my aching, throbbing cock.
In this moment, as I lay there, feeling her mouth pressed against mine and longing for just one more minute of stroking, or even just one more hard squeeze, I am inevitably torn between longing for her to heed my obvious need for more and being so happy and proud that she now feels confident enough to make her own decisions. No more the hesitant ending, nowadays Mistress R stops and tells me ‘no more’ and she means it (you may recall the other night I begged her to continue and I had to use one of my three chances to get her to do so… it was totally worth it though).
I love that she has come so far in such a short time and it makes me wonder where we might be in a few years time. Once she’s whipped my body into shape (possibly quite literally!) then where will she focus her attention? Who knows, maybe by the time I hit my mid-forties I might be locked up 24/7 and wondering when, or even if, I’m going to be allowed to cum again… after all it was only seven or eight months ago that Mistress R was completely against the idea of male chastity and now she’s more than happy to leave me hanging for weeks at a time! Mmmmmmmmm, so lucky am I…
Whatever happens, I’m sure Mistress R and I will still be happy, together and just as in love as we were nearly twenty years ago when we first met. I can’t help wondering what our relative orgasm counts will be though, Mistress could be close to a thousand while I might not even have reached one hundred.
Fuck… I really hope so!
In this moment, as I lay there, feeling her mouth pressed against mine and longing for just one more minute of stroking, or even just one more hard squeeze, I am inevitably torn between longing for her to heed my obvious need for more and being so happy and proud that she now feels confident enough to make her own decisions. No more the hesitant ending, nowadays Mistress R stops and tells me ‘no more’ and she means it (you may recall the other night I begged her to continue and I had to use one of my three chances to get her to do so… it was totally worth it though).
I love that she has come so far in such a short time and it makes me wonder where we might be in a few years time. Once she’s whipped my body into shape (possibly quite literally!) then where will she focus her attention? Who knows, maybe by the time I hit my mid-forties I might be locked up 24/7 and wondering when, or even if, I’m going to be allowed to cum again… after all it was only seven or eight months ago that Mistress R was completely against the idea of male chastity and now she’s more than happy to leave me hanging for weeks at a time! Mmmmmmmmm, so lucky am I…
Whatever happens, I’m sure Mistress R and I will still be happy, together and just as in love as we were nearly twenty years ago when we first met. I can’t help wondering what our relative orgasm counts will be though, Mistress could be close to a thousand while I might not even have reached one hundred.
Fuck… I really hope so!
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